Against Personality

Recently I was given a book that teaches young married women how to be a Godly help mate to their husbands. The other day as I sat riding the bike at the community center and reading in this book I came across a saying that almost stopped me dead in my tracks. The phrase went like this, "it's better for your husband to do it poorly than you to do it at all". This phrase was referring to being a leader in the home. Therefore it is better for a man to lead poorly than a women to lead at all. Now this was referring to Christians couples. Now my husband is not a bad leader, do not take this out of context, he is a wonderful spiritual leader of our home and a great man of God. I have watched my husband numerous times teach our children spiritual lessons and be blessed by knowing that they trust their father, and through that trust, they learn and know they are being taught the truth of God's word! I myself in the last couple of months have had to begin to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit tell me to step back. See for those of you who may know me a small bit, you may know that I am a very opinionated person, and I don't like to let anything "be in the air". I like order, organization, and to have a handle on all situations. On the other handle, my husband and I have always been on two different sides of the fence when it comes to types of personalities. He on the other hand is someone who thinks everything through before making a decision about anything (which is a great trait, I just don't have it), he avoids all conflict if possible, and could care less if we make a choice today or if we wait for 3 weeks. Do you see how we are slightly different. Thinking back to my statement that was made in the book, do you see how I, being the one who wants to have order and have order now, could sometimes overstep my husband in his role as the leader of our home? For me not making a choice today, means we are putting it off. Putting it off goes against my whole personality, not handling the task at hand "right now", goes against everything I am. Recently we have had to make some decisions that affect our whole family, this certain decision has been made in the past, but most of the time I was the one making the final choice, but because of what the Lord is teaching me about my husband being our leader I am stepping back. during the past day or two I have felt very blessed knowing that I have a husband that I can trust to make the right decisions for our family. In the past my fears have always been, "what if he doesn't understand, my point". I no longer have to struggle with this, because even if it is a poor decision, I know God's hand is on it, simply because... I have allowed my self to step out of picture and have allowed my husband to step in... He is our Spiritual leader, I dare not try to fill that spot.