Psalm 56:8

Tonight I sit and as I scan over my facebook I see a post from a college friend saying, "She would have been 5....Angelina Hope Blakemore...born on June 28th 2006...only for a moment we held you in our arms....gone to be with Jesus on June 29th, 2006...but forever in our hearts! We miss you so much! Mommy and Daddy love you baby girl!"

To this day when I read of another person's recent lose or the anniversary of a lose of a child my heart drops. It brings me back to such heartache. On one hand heartache that I never hope to feel in this life again but on the other hand heartache that drew me closer to my Creator, my Savior than I had ever been in my entire life.

Driving here and there my family listens to K-love, it's the one station you can guarantee will be on the radio when you crank the engine up. Often the song, "Blessings" has been played over and over. As I listen to this song I can not help to be reminded of losing our son. The chorus says,

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

Each anniversary of the lose of a child brings many emotions to the grieving parent. The tears return, the sleepless nights return but as the song states it is at that point we remember that You, Jesus is near to us. Tonight as I sit and think of my friend, Jesus is near to her. The book of Psalms says, "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."
If you are mother or father that has lost a child know that God sees each and every tear you shed, He is keeping track of every sorrow, each tear you shed is in a bottle, all are recorded in His book. It is through these tears that your healing will take place.